itunes: welcome to the black parade by my chemical romance

Ah, a good day spent well with good company. Indeed. Meeting your old friends, just seem to be different, maybe.

No doubt we had to walk to different places, to make sure the surprise works out, it was all worth it to see the expression on Clara, when she got her surprise. =)

Happy Birthday again, Clara, though the day has passed.

Sitting down to chat, with Hannah and Xiuhui, it made me discover lots of things again. Things that we were not able to find out or discover back then, things that we are to know only at this point of time, choices of which junior college we would be in, if we were to have a second choice. I wouldn't change my decision though.

And Hannah, listening to me blabber on about every single thing, offering her every single advice, and her views of relationships anf singlehood. Haha. Thanks for being honest with me, Hannah. =)

Training tomorrow, Ben & Jerry's with the PW group, and then dinner at Clarinda's house plus OP rehearsal.

We'll carry on,We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

itunes: cigarettes by yellowcard

Ah, things will never be the same again???

I am done with reading the Da Vinci Code, crashed it within a week or so. And I wanted to rent the DVD just now, but somehow, I tend to keep forgetting things recently.

You know, I'm just wondering how different this holiday is going to be, as compared to the previous two years. The holidays for the past two years, had more or less, been the same, spent with the same company and all. This year, probably, it'll just be a different feeling.

After getting back from Japan, I realised that indeed, what you feel when you're overseas, not at home, is quite different from what you feel at home, emotionally, if you do understand. It tends to be just from a different perspective? Anyway, it'll be another month or so, before Sunway Lagoon Milo trip in mid-December.

Well, let's just wait for this week of holiday to pass first then.

Thanks wonder, really thanks, so much for the reply.

Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, just a few drags to go
You built me up and you broke me down somehow
Everything just seemed so clear to me, nothing left to know
I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, right now

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now

And I would wait for you (oh), if you would wait for me (yeah)
And I will wait for you (oh), if you will wait for me (yeah)

Intoxicated the edge is serrated, so easily torn from the core
I blushed the first time, but you blushed the last time my eyes in your mind
Regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore
You built me up and you broke me down this time

And I would wait for you (oh), if you would wait for me (yeah)
And I will wait for you (oh), if you will wait for me (yeah)

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now
How can you say

cigarettes are bad.

itunes: emily's song by bbmak

You will always be the one that I adore
Means so much to me but dreams you were before
It's you Emily that makes me write this song
Your eyes are open wide, but still so much to see
All that's new to you seems so old to me
Now I'm far away a minute seems so long

It's just another day without you
It's just another day when I'm not there
I'm going to find a way to be so close to you
You've got to know how much I care
It's just another day without you
It's just another day when I'm not there
I'm going to give my love, my heart, my soul to you
All this I'll give to you I swear

Longing to hold you feel you in my arms
Never let you go far from me for long
Girl I promise you my feelings are so strong
Eyes are open wide but still so much to see
All that's new to you seems so old to me
When I'm far away a minute seems so long

It's just another day without you
It's just another day when I'm not there
I'm going to give my love, my heart, my soul to you
All this I'll give to you I swear

If only you could read what's on my mind
See right through my eyes
You'd sooner realize

It's just another day without you
It's just another day when I'm not there
I'm going to give my love, my heart, my soul to you
All this I'll give to you I swear
It's just another day without you
It's just another day when I'm not there
I'm going to find a way to be so close to you
You've got to know how much I care
29th october 2004

itunes: 軌跡 by 周杰倫

So yeah, I'm back from Japan, since about 24 hours ago. But well, let's just say that it was a good trip, a break from what I've been going through, though it was quite a short one, it was good enough. Disney Resort practically makes every single person feel like a kid again, it's just so magical. Haha, I'll update about it with photos another time instead.

Back to school today, and I do miss school, even though it was jus one day that I did not attend. I don't know why I felt that way, but I was just glad to be able to go to school this morning. So tomorrow's going to be the last day of school.

Anyway, Steven just asked me a good question, which I've been thinking for quite a while, how am I going to celebrate my birthday. It just occur to me, that for the past four years, throughout my SCGS life, I never got to celebrate my birthday, on the acutal day itself.

Secondary One, Two and Three, if I'm not wrong, my birthday had coincided with the annual Prefects' Seminar. Not that I was unhappy about it, in fact I was glad, because I got the whole board to celebrate it with me. And last year, there was the O Level Biology paper on my birthday itself, and I spent the rest of the day studying for Literature, Twelfth Night, so I hjust had a birthday cake celebration with my family in the night. I was happy that I got to celebrate my birthday that way.

Thinking again, it makes me remember about the promise made in the message, two years ago on my birthday, well, let's just say, it's long gone? Haha, I'll just see how it goes this year.

If you can, try to understand the lyrics. =)

itunes: lips of an angel by hinder

Yeah, so the promotional exam results were out today, disappointing yes indeed, especially with General Paper. I've learnt my lesson, terribly. But meanwhile, I'll just enjoy my Japan trip first.

Erwin, thanks. Clarinda, thanks. Roy, thanks. Marc, thanks. Fangling, thanks. Leheng, thanks. Qianhui, thanks. Claire, thanks. Bang, thanks. August, thanks. Keepin, thanks. Xinling, thanks. Keith, thanks. Shuqin, thanks. Ronnie, thanks. Eugene, thanks.

Meanwhile, could get me at my email yeah, I'll be online in the night, if there's wireless, and message me on my phone, could still check the smses online.

=)

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

itunes: start the machine by angels & airwaves

WOOHOO!!! ORAL PRESENTATION IS DONE, WHICH MEANS, ALMOST THE WHOLE PROJECT WORK IS GOING TO BE OVER, except for some changes which needs to be done, hopefully minor ones.

No more late-night cramming, and finally, tomorrow I'll get to check out the Japan related stuff. The subway timings, the bus transport timings, the SHOPS!!! Ah, I can at least, sense the excitation. =)

You know I won't say sorry
Do you know I won't say sorry?
The pain has a bad reaction
A blend of fear and passion
Do you know what it's like to believe?
It makes me wanna scream

I see the stars they’re in your eyes
A playful kiss can you tell I'm excited?
A fast escape in the nick of time
You lost your wish can I help you find it?
I'm on my knee, just one to start
A fresh new start to be undecided
If love’s a word, that you say
Then say it, I will listen

itunes: too far gone by the all-american rejects

I know I really shouldn't be typing here, and working on my I&R, but I guess I really need to do this.

"10 things you want to say to 10 different people without naming names".
1. Yeah, it seems to be getting on my nerves. Sorry that it turned out this way.
2. You've enlightened me, so much so that I look up to you, and you never fail to be there.
3. Hey, hope you are really doing all fine out there, and just know that we'll all be missing you yeah?
4. The idol-chasing, gossiping, bitching, we both enjoy it. Haha.
5. Thanks so much, for being there with me through all these while, you never fail to cheer me up with all the rubbish comments and stuff, and the shopping trips.
6. I miss working hard, together with you.
7. I'll never forget those memories, you know your place, in my heart.
8. One day, I'll just hope you'll understand, how I feel.
9. Thanks for all the really retarded times, and the really serious talks, like REAL SERIOUS, ahem, you are retarded! haha.
10. We've drifted apart, definitely, but slowly, we'll be able to pick these pieces back up.

itunes: how to save a life by the fray

No, I never like being jealous.

It sucks, it seriously does.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

itunes: it ends tonight by the all-american rejects

I was supposed to wake up, I think, about two hours or so earlier. It never works anyway, the short naps I meant.

Ah, so now, I'll just have to cram I&R!!! But first.

Guess everyone was feeling tired today in school, since it's the first day of lesson after quite a good break. Anyway, I went bowling just now, after quite a long while, of not touching my bowling balls. I tried to play as slow as I can, because there wasn't anyone else at the bowling alley. After three games, my thumb feels kind of sore though. I'm going to train hard, LIKE REALLY HARD. After all, next year is going to be somehow, the last nationals that I'm going to play. I think.

Erh, kor is going to leave for Taiwan, tomorrow night, and well, a little shy to say, I'm going to miss him. No doubt that it's three weeks and I did see him not at all for three weeks during BMT, it's different. It's going to be in another country. I don't know if you'll see this somehow, but yeah, we'll miss you. Awww, no more "club" for the next few weeks. Haha.

I&R! I&R! I&R!

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

itunes: the last song by the all-american rejects

This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song, for you, and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me
Will you give it back, and I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you wantIs this what you need
How you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now I am gone, just try and stop me, now.

You wanted the best, but it wasn't me
Will you give it back, now i'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you wantIs this what you need
How you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Will you need me now ?
You'll find a way somehow
You want it too
I want it too

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
Saturday, October 16, 2004 3:57:30 AM
good night.

itunes: my paper heart by the all-american rejects

Sometimes it might be okay, but other times, it is just not.

Had a good family day out today, and it's been quite some time. I enjoyed it, really.

Lessons are going to start tomorrow again, results are going to be on Friday, just right before I leave for Japan. Hope it isn't going to affect my mood somehow.

You know, I'm just wondering if I'm going to still feel the exhaustion that I did, before the promos have started, thinking about every single thing. Listening to the All-American Rejects again, really brought me back into those times. Having listened to the past month's playlist of Westlife, made me feel like I was living in another world. Now, it's a slap-back to reality.

No, things are not bad. I didn't mention that, it's just all the random thoughts, again.

I'll indulge in some project work.
it's so hard not to care for you.
Summertime,
the nights they are so long,
the leaves fall down,
and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
my bedside is cold,
for I am gone,
and spring blossoms you...
to me

itunes: can't lose what you never had by westlife

Ah, well, there was supposed to be an entry yesterday, but blogger didn't like me. So let's just hope this will do.

Was actually blogging about judgement, or rather having to be judgmental in certain things. Let's just say, ignorance is bliss? Haha, alright, I'm just kidding.

Right now, I'm just wondering if I should go stare at the Windows Live Messenger screen, or initiate it. Grrr. It's been quite a while anyway.

Games day is seriously tiring. Not like I really did play anything at all, but just walking around is enough? But never mind, soccer tomorrow!!! Hope I wouldn't trip over the ball like I did at Sentosa on Monday, but well, it was on sand then.

So these are what I've been wanting to upload. =)

06th October 2006
- dinner@breeks
- walking around town in the hazy air
- back to my house, for class bonding








07th October 2006
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!
- movie marathon, still at my house: date movie, a lot like love, mean girls, final destination 3
- indian poker + truth or truth session + future plans sharing session
- crash bendicoot on playstation + counter-strike + online blogging/surfing
- macdonalds' breakfast at bukit panjang plaza



































- out with the bowlers for a little shopping
- met charlene tan!!!
- fish&co. dinner
- they watched meet the fockers at my house while I was sleeping
- and we all slept





09th October 2006
- met oneSAthree at harbourfront mrt
- breakfast at nearby hawker centre
- bus into sentosa
- soccer + frisbee + playing in water + tanning + lunch@delifrance + skylift + LUGE RIDE + shower
- bus back to main island at 5 plus
- mailto:dinner@harbourfront food junction
- walking around vivocity + pacific coffee company








Okay, finally, time to sleep.

Fear of rejection,
kept my love inside.
But time is running out,
so damn my foolish pride.

itunes: how to save a life by the fray

Now that the promo exams are all over, there's time again, to think about what has been paused. Don't quite like it actually, 'cause sometimes it just makes me feel even more sad. Though I know, I've told myself to be as happy as I could, it gets a lil hard at times.

Happier things, post-promo has been going on really fine, much more than fine actually. I'm feeling a little tired now, from the whole day of activities. Will update with photos about it tomorrow yeah. Meanwhile, yeah, I'm feeling all good and fine. Looking forward to each new day that comes still. =)

Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
...

And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

itunes: heart without a home by westlife

Not too sure if everyone knows about this yet, but go add spleak@hotmail.com . It's this computer-acitvated human being, erh, okay, computer-activated person for you to talk crap to. And that's what I did for the past few nights, chatted with "her" a little. It's quite brainless actually. But well, "she" can play games with you, plus the stupid online polls and the encyclopedia search and stuff.

WARNING: THERE CAN BE REALLY SENSELESS REPLIES THOUGH, i.e

itunes: hey whatever by westlife

ARGH!!! I'M GETTING THE LAST MINUTE CREEPS OF MATH!!!

It's horrible.

FUNCTIONS. GRAPHING TECHNIQUES. EQUATIONS. INEQUALITIES. partial fractions. ARITHMETIC PROGRESSION. GEOMETRIC PROGRESSION. SIGMA NOTATION. SUMMATION. sigma notation. binomial theorem. mathematical induction. differentiation. DERIVATIVES. MACLAURIN'S SERIES. INTEGRATION.

STUPID TRIGONOMETRY INTEGRATION!!!

Am hoping it'll be all alright.

itunes: world of our own by westlife

Things that made me angsty/frustrated/sad/pissed today:
1. Wasting time not doing Math
2. Spending one whole hour on just a stupid inequalities question
3. Using much more than 3 hours to complete revision paper 3 which is extremely IMPORTANT
4. WINDOWS LIVE MESSENGER HAS SOME FREAKING PROBLEM, which causes my conversations to keep appearing this "The following message could not be delivered"!!! GRRRRR.

Things that made me happy/glad/at ease today:
1. Watching One Tree Hill Season Four, EPISODE ONE!!!
2. Cherry (my jack russell terrier), coming home after a night stay in the animal clinic.
3. Solving the questions that I got stuck on, with the help of Marc. Thanks.
4. My mummy asking me if I wanted to join the Mediacorp Shanghai trip, for experience in news broadcasting, I think.
and testimonial accepted!!!
Haha, I think my mummy's a little high about going overseas. There's Disney Resort in Japan, Superstar Virgo Cruise, KL Milo Trip. Whoa!

Ah well, I'll get on with a little more of Math first. Then, it's dreamland, I hope.

moody suburban teenage love song.