itunes: what about now by daughtry

It kind of felt heart-warming, to hear this song after watching episode 9 of One Tree Hill.

And and, I really want the results out, or at least, I think I want it to.


shadows fill an empty heart
as love is fading
from all the things that we are
but are not saying
can we see beyond the scars
and make it to the dawn

change the colours of the sky
and open up to
the ways you made me feel alive
the ways i loved you
for all the things that never died
to make it through the night
love will find you

what about now
what about today
what if you're making me all that i was meant to be
what if our love never went away
what if it's lost behind words we could never find
baby before it's too late

what about now?

this broken heart can still survive,
with a touch of your grace.

itunes: mesmerized by lifehouse

It's actually really hard, to get over something, or someone.

Takes time, seriously, and I think it's quite a long time.

Went for NTU's talk earlier in the day, and I'm kind of quite fixed on what I want to for the next three or four years. I'm just hoping really hard that I'll get into the course, at any of the three schools. Like I've been telling people, I'll go to wherever that offers me the course, rather than choose the place I want to go.

And actually, work tonight made me realise I enjoy the weekdays much much more, whether it's opening or closing.

Another week has passed, and I'm still counting.

itunes: first time by lifehouse

I'm kind of actually looking forward to the day, where I will not be the least affected by it.

But meanwhile, I'm just not able to yet, and it's something that I still can't deny.

While the past few days have been physically draining, due to I have no idea what reason it is, other than work. But nah, can't be much from work since I've been doing this for almost two months already.

And, don't worry, I'm still loving every bit of it at Dempsey. That's 'cause we've got nice people there, haha. =)

Oh right, I wanted to rant about how unfair it is of Lucas to deny his love for Peyton! I'm referring to One Tree Hill Season 5 by the way, and it's kind of going to be a spoiler. I mean, throughout the past few seasons of the show, it's always meant to be, the two of them. I can't believe that I had cried during the past two episodes to see Peyton's heart broken by Lucas again, sigh.

Okay, I'll go watch some Friends later to make myself happy, and then have an early night.

itunes: the last song by the all-american rejects

I didn't think that you would change so much.

But probably it might actually be good, and help me move on. Probably it might slowly turn into dislike, or rather hate.

It actually seems to be moving towards that way. And I hope I'm not lying to myself, nor trying to prove it to anyone.

This aside, I'm kind of waiting in anticipation for the A's results. Rumours are just spreading around but no one actually knows when it is.

And besides waiting for the release of the results, and application of universities, I would just want the following to fill up the rest of the ten and a half months left in the year, and I will be more than satisfied: driving lessons + license, scooping more ice-cream, probably a month-long internship at some law firm or something, catching up with friends, spending time with family, keeping healthy, and trips to shopping + sentosa.

Probably so, then I would be a much happier girl. =)

itunes: if your heart's not in it by westlife

'Cause it's never easy to overcome the feeling of missing.

I've been having too much late nights, and I really think I should start being normal.

itunes: come back down by lifehouse

I can't believe how unlucky I was at work today. I got my finger burnt by the waffle cone machine, and okay, it was just a really minor burn.

Two hours later, the bigger tray that was used to bake the two trays of brownies burnt my thigh area. And I'm wondering if it's like a first-degree burn or whatever shit it is. 'Cause it's freaking hell painful.

And Dempsey's kind of like becoming my second home already.

Anyway, A's results are supposedly coming out on Friday. Oh please.

itunes: teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift

The past few days, spent celebrating CNY and it's been quite a fun time after all still. Eve was the usual steamboat dinner at home, followed by visiting on the First day and to Ronnie's house after that. Spent kind of large amount of energy playing hopscotch with his sister, who's almost ten years younger than me. And I was freaking tired out by it after that night.

Second day was movie with the family and popped by Joel's house after that for twentyone and inbetween. It was really funny 'cause we played in-between with the CNY goodies instead and some ended up eating almost ten slices of kuehlapis.

Then, just yesterday, for the Third day, got the class people plus the bowlers down for gathering at my place, for the usual things again. We tried in-between once again with the food, and we finished one whole tin of muruku + kueh lapis again.

I haven't been able to sleep at proper time the past few days, averaging almost 4am the past few nights/mornings. I'm going to sleep early today I think, since there's driving in the morning, and I'm actually kind of excited to get back to work.

Anyway, I just realised a while ago that it's the tenth of February again, two years ago, was the O Level results + Dad's company dinner. It's been really, really fast.

itunes: blind by lifehouse

Oh my, it's like almost four, and I'm still up here, just done with supper and my daily dosage of Friends.

Having to take a break for almost one week from work, is going to feel kind of weird. But well, it's the CNY after all, which can get quite fun. I'm especially looking forward to Saturday, where the class+bowling people will be over at my house once again. My fave people from school.

Class dinner last Saturday night was good. It made me really miss being the "mother" of the class, treating the class people as the "kids", haha.

Anyway, I got my FIRST salary for my FIRST ever job today! =) =) =)

And to reward myself, I got a Lomo Actionsampler Flash! I really hope it'll be delivered before Val's Day, so that it will help me get ideas for that day.

Okay, I'll wake up within six hours.