itunes: we used to by daughtry

I don't know what it is, or rather how to describe it. But there's something inside, that's eating me up. It's like ARGH!!!

I think, probably I do need to learn, to start letting things go. At the same time, to accept how it is, and try to make the best out of what is left. Because it seems that I'm trying too hard right now, and it's not good.

So far, school has been okay, just that I don't like school yet. I'm still in the mood of 'take me back to my scooping days'. Yes, I'd rather work than go to school. People think I'm crazy for thinking that. Unfortunately, I can't help it, that's they way I'm still feeling right now.

In fact, you know I really don't like this month, like August. The first week was still a-okay, but things just felt as if it was going downhill ever since the second week. I really don't know why! Only consolation, is that August is ending, and I'm hoping to start September anew. If possible, be like how July was?

Now, I'm just feeling really, really tired. So I'm gonna go grab a bite, probably try to do a lil more reading for lesson in the morning later, and then catch my sleep.

itunes: memory by sugarcult

fuck.

itunes: memory by sugarcult

This is probably one of few times, that I've felt like that this year. I admit, the thoughts that are going through in my head right now, came up much more often in the past few years. But through this past eight months, it had been all good, except for tonight, right now.

Difference is, it's all towards a different subject.

I actually didn't expect myself to have feel this way so fast? In fact, I'd probably never think that I was gonna be like that at all, until recently, when I realised that things were all going too well, and that it slowly began to change.

Watching an episode of Friends didn't manage to make me laugh at all.

Maybe it's just time, for me to sleep.

itunes: whatever it takes by lifehouse

To sum up for the past two weeks, here's what I've done.

1. WATCHED DAUGHTRY LIVE
2. Bondue Camp 2008
3. watched more FRIENDS
4. went for NDP 2008
5. met up with more people
6. treasure more of the times that I stand behind those dipcases.

Yes, with point 6, I meant that each time I went to work, I kept telling myself that I'll be scooping ice-cream less and less. And I'm =(. I'm so so, SO going to miss that place. And this coming week, will probably be the last time that I'll be working more than once or twice a week, until maybe the hols arrived.

Anyway, I'm satisfied with my class timetable for the coming term. I've got a three-days school week, and managed to bid for the course successfully. Just that, sometimes, I get the feeling that my timetable is too good to be true? But, we'll see how it goes then.

Bondue was fun. I liked my group! We had our own kind of fun, especially the H2H talk on the first night, and our really sober-high mood on the second night. We probably didn't put in as much effort as the other groups, for the games and all, but we enjoyed each others' company and that was more than enough. It was quite a relaxing camp I would say, maybe that's why I'm not exactly looking forward to FTB.

You know, I've been thinking about how much I'd rather use those three days to scoop more ice-cream rather than go for FTB? Shhh, it ain't that good a thing. Let's see how it's gonna be then.

Anyway, this is going to be the last week of my almost 9-months Post A's vacation. It sped past really fast. To think that one year ago, we were all mugging like mad in the Hub/void deck/Holland V's Coffeebean/BPP's Starbucks. And the dinner from the parents' support group.
Honestly, honestly speaking, I guess I wouldn't mind going through that mugging period again, knowing that I'll be able to have as much fun as I had, for the last nine months.

Whatever it is, I just want to say, I'm probably having the time of my life, right now.