itunes: what about now by daughtry

I had fun, enough to make me not think about it for that short lil while.

But tonight, made me realise that I've missed , alot.

And unfortunately, I still do.

In fact, I think it's much more than I ever did before.

And you know, I'm fixed on waiting still. It's stubborn, when the facts are shown to me, right in my face.

But I can't help it.

That's just how it is.

Goodnight world.

itunes: what about now by daughtry

I just have to admit,

I miss you, alot.

And I wish I could tell you.


To look forward to (motivation):
LIFEHOUSE.

itunes: i promise by stacie orrico

Somehow, I couldn't control it last night. I broke down, once again.

In fact, it probably was the worst, but now it's all okay. I realised it's grown deeper than I had previously. Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm wrong. I guess, I'll probably never now.

Since it's all over.

This aside, I'm so getting used to school now, twelve hours almost everyday, what's new? At least I don't come back home and complain. Rather, I enjoy it. Some deadlines off the load, and now the mid-term tests. I think I'll probably need to think through carefully how far I want to go, and what I'm going to do for the next few years. I'm actually still feeling undecided.

And now, I think I'm feeling very, very tired.

itunes: what about now by daughtry

How apt. Note: I didn't purposely click next for many times just to get it shuffled to this on itunes!

I heard the thunder at first, then saw the lightning flash, and now the heavy rain drops. It just reminded me of that one late night, or rather really early morning after one of the Euro Cup 2008 matches.

At least now, I still have Ugly. :)

Haha, oh well, I think I need some sleep. I really don't want to think too much.

itunes: NOTHING

Myeh, I just realised, I suddenly miss the times that I spent in Switzerland, Paris and London, alot and alot. The two weeks of holidays in June, was like HOW FUN!

(I was just getting a break from ACAD WRITING - which is killing me, and so I surfed through the FB photos.)

BIG match tonight, CAN'T WAIT!

itunes: makedamnsure by taking back sunday

One thing, I gotta learn, is to start knowing who and what and when to trust.

'Cause if I don't wake up, I probably might still be living in that innocent and naive world of mine.

Sometimes, you just think that that one person, is the correct one to tell things to. But the next moment, it seems otherwise to you. And you wonder, if you've made the wrong move.

So, did I?

Well, I'm just glad that the nights that I've stayed till late in school for the past weeks or so, have been making my life in Uni much more fulfilling.

To think, I actually will have difficulty in bringing myself away from that place gradually. I didn't think it will have felt so easy. I refuse to admit to the fact that it's caused by that reason.

Never mind, doesn't matter. Whatever it is, I'll just appreciate whatever there is right now.

itunes: hate that i love you by rihanna ft. ne-yo

Well, so after today, it kind of confirms it.

I feel, actually, that I'm gradually distancing from that place. It seems like it isn't as bad as what I thought it was going to feel like. Why is that so? Probably the reason why I was so attached to the place from the beginning, wasn't the right reason to feel so. And now that it's gone, it's starting to fade too. It's all changing. Kind of sad, ain't it?

It just doesn't feel right, anymore.

So while I was on the way home from Dempsey, I watched the videos of Daughtry Live at the Traffic Jam Street Party about a month plus ago. I'm just really glad that I got to watch the band live, and it was a really fun experience. Probably nothing live will be as good as it was.

And tonight, is the ninth night consecutively, that I'm sleeping after 3am.

I'm so glad that Chelsea's still leading. Downside that Terry got sent out though.

Right now, I'm actually losing my voice.

itunes: 回到過去 by 周杰伦

I think I'm crazy, this is the sixth night that I'm sleeping after 3am. Something's wrong with me that I barely feel tired in the day.

No doubt school has been getting busy, really busy in fact. I've got a three days-school week timetable, and given the fact that it's only week four, I've been in school everyday for the past two weeks at least.

But it's all okay, I'm appreciating it. I'm beginning to enjoy school, and the relief I get each time when assignment/project deadlines are met. The week is coming to an end, and I can't believe it, it's already a month into school.

Tomorrow, I'll hope that I can sleep before 3am at least. And, I just can't wait till SAthree gathers at my place on Sat!

itunes: what about now by daughtry

I never thought that I ever needed to, nor I ever would. But let tonight, be the first, and the last time.

That I will cry.
'cause of you.
Thanks for the memories.

Here's yet another closure.
:)


what about now
what about today
what if you're making me, all that i was meant to be
what if our love
never went away
what if it's lost behind, words we could never find
baby before it's too late
what about now?

itunes: i will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie

Probably, it's just fading.

accept it

itunes: what about now by daughtry

Only consolation:

Lucas and Peyton are back together, for the First episode of Season Six.
At least.

itunes: i will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie

Well, seems like I can't. At least, not for tonight. I don't know why. I tell myself that I can, but it seems otherwise. Each time, the more I think about not giving in, it seems like I'm falling in deeper?

It kind of felt as if I've got a lil crack there, yeah, the heart?

Things change, my dear.

Even though I try hard not to, I think I'll always believe what Peyton said in One Tree Hill, people always leave.

I know it's cliche, and everyone uses it.

It's just part and parcel of life, I should have expected it. (Jin, rmb, you told me to be prepared?)
Well, I doubt I'm still ready for it yet.

Never mind, I guess I still can manage a little smile.

itunes: hands down by dashboard confessional

I admit, I've been having a negative attitude towards school, for the past two weeks. But somehow, this week, I'm beginning to be more receptive towards school. The 'hate' that I had for the past few weeks, is subsiding, and I guess it's a good thing? Probably 'cause I'm getting used to it, and knowing the fact that it's something that I can't avoid anyway. I've promised myself to get started on work, right this very moment, (after I'm done with this entry and prob OTH), and to make the best out of my next four years. I doubt I want to be really active in the school activities though. That's probably okay.

And after working last night, I don't know why, the feeling's sort of fading away? Wouldn't actually dare to say it's fading, but it's changing. I'm probably starting to miss less of it already. To me, this is what I probably was afraid. That it will change. And it seems like it is. I can't decide whether it's good or not. The past eight months sped passed so fast, that I kind of regret not enjoying it more. But it's all good. Especially the last three months.

I'm accepting it. Maybe it probably might work better this way. Just that I thought at first that it might have been something different? Seems otherwise, given the state. But it's all okay.

SO right now, I'll just be prepared for a really busy weekend, plus busy-busy weeks to come. And whenever I can, I'll go back to stand behind those dipcases. =)