itunes: in the sun by joseph arthur

Within the span of a few days, I've found out so much, I've known so much. As Jin said today, it's a shock, a big blow.

Yeah it def is. Who could have saw this coming?

Honestly, what I feel, that is the most wasted, it the fact that we three could have been hanging out like good friends, if probably things didn't start in the first place. I could actually see that coming back then. But unfortunately, it didn't, and I guess it can't anymore.

I'm going to learn to be the gracious one.

itunes: blind by lifehouse

Tonight, I realised, that so many people around me do care.

I stepped into the shop, I knew for sure, that it was different already. And yet, I wasn't the only one who felt that way.

What happened?

I didn't want myself to feel this way. It was definitely the last thing that I wanted to happen. But there's nothing I can do to help or change it. I'm not even sure if it's even possible to.

It doesn't matter anymore.

From tonight, or rather just now, I'm going to stop dwelling in it. There's no point to anymore. And Uncle Sam promised me he will, so I hope he's able to bring me along.

Back to school soon, and I'm going to "do what I want and what I like, and live for the moment"

Right, haha.

itunes: new american classic by taking back sunday

Best night so far, and it's been quite a lil while.

So painting the small portion of the wall today, for CSP. No doubt we ain't any of the artistic sort, it turned out fine, or rather good, and happy!

The most spontaneous and last-minute decision, to go for dinner/supper and the shop for our logistics!

Celebrating a birthday at the car lobby of a condominium, in the middle of a common walkway. Who could have thought of a better place? Then virgin trip to ChompChomp, and jokes about parallel parking. Next stop to my first at Mustafa, shopping way past midnight! Car-ride back home, freaking out about the cockroach in the car.

I call this, WTS.
And in case you didn't know, it's "Welcome to SMU".

itunes: we used to by daughtry

Stab,

again.

itunes: romantic balcony by mltr

You know, I think I just can't seem to bear to.

I can't forsee how it's going to be like if I'm going to start hating.

It's like, I'm looking at the photos, and I just can only smile about it. For those moment, now I feel, it was too good to be true.

Maybe I like living in self-denial. Somehow or rather, I just can't get myself to believe that it's like that. That what is obvious now is what I never thought it would be.

A total different perspective today, I'm determined. But yet, I give in easily.

I don't regret. I never believe in regretting. Because you wouldn't know or learn, till you've tried. It's just, wasted.

And right now, I just want to give in again.

itunes: what about now by daughtry

effing Stab it again, will you?

Yeah, the ♥.

itunes: romantic balcony by mltr

I honestly think,

I'M GOING CRAZY FROM STATS101!

I would rather be taking the A Level Math Paper 2 again, twice of the Stats paper, than this.

I have no idea, if i should use approximation for the questions tmr, should I use continuity correction, should I use the GC, no clue about uniform distribution.

Why can't it be as straightforward? Or is it just me?

I think I really need sleep.

itunes: romantic balcony by mltr

I'm just scared that there will come a day when I'll begin to hate you.

'Cause I can actually see it coming.

I don't want it to come to such a point. But I'm just afraid, what if?

"Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will."
- Peyton Sawyer [Hilarie Burton] from One Tree Hill

itunes: romantic balcony by michael learns to rock

I found the song, just. But probably, it's a lil too late already.

I actually miss the car rides back home that I had for those few times, alot. The journey distance was quite long, from "one country" to "another country" as we claimed. But the time was too fast, probably.

Then, I thought of the nights at Dempsey, after closing. The music blasting really loud, and that one night or two, where we had spare time to have some sort of singing session on our small little stage. Daughtry, and more Daughtry.

Great memories.

Then also, the Monday openings. People talk about Monday blues, but I looked forward to it. And of course, how can I forget the Fridays?

I'm actually going to try to sleep early, hopefully.


high above this world,
missing your love.