itunes: white horse by taylor swift

Honestly speaking, I won't deny it. Especially after tonight.

But I know I shouldn't harp on that fact anymore. It was over and it still is. So just leave it as that.

I just want to move on. And get myself back once again.

After all, I had a really lovely day, fulfilling one.

baby i was naive,
got lost in your eyes
and never really had a chance
i had so many dreams about you and me
happy endings
now i know

i’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
i’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell
this ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
i was a dreamer before you went and let me down
now it’s too late for you
and your white horse, to come around

itunes: what about now by daughtry

I thought, it wouldn't hurt as much as it used to. But apparently not.

For the first time this year, it hurts alot again, worst ever so far.

I'm just hoping for it to fade away as the year goes. If not, it's going to be unbearable, yet again. Time and time again, I'm brought back to such a situation.

Okay, I make it sound like there was alot of times, but no. Just thrice, two subjects, within five years.

One broke, mended it back, but broke it again. Then the next, warned of the danger, patched it back, but burnt badly.

I keep getting reprimanded for living in denial, but that's just me. What am I to do about it?

I'm glad for school, but unfortunately for the wrong reason, the workload burdens me so much that I'm too tired and can't be bothered to care about it. For just that period of time only.

I NEED A PERMANENT SOLUTION.

itunes: 回到過去 by 周杰伦

eFFF you.

itunes: i won't disagree by kate voegele

People usually post entries that reflect on their 2008, or of how they would like 2009 to be, at the end of a year, or the beginning of a new one.

But I guess, I'll try not to.

Today's dinner with SAthree, was yet another good one. I like how we can get so many people to turn up for a meal, though not all and not everyone can come for every single one. But yet, somehow, we can all still talk to each other so comfortably. And that's what motivates me to plan for more of such.

I'm looking forward for school to start on Monday, somehow. And there's a strong determination in me, to get myself to work hard.

Yet at the same time, I still want to be able to help as much as I can at Dempsey. It's almost impossible for me to get my life at Dempsey back like how it was for those 7 months or so, the post-A's life where majority of it was spent at. But still, I've so much attachment, or rather affection to that place.

And I want to get this message across to someone who has been important in my life for the past seven years, and still is. I miss you, and those times. But somehow or rather, I'm beginning to feel tired to try anymore. It might not just be on my part to feel that way, probably you too. So much is changing, you, me, everything else. I can't be like how I was before. It's the start of a new year, and all I've heard from you, was asking for just a favour. I don't mind being left out from all those, all I mind is knowing that I still mean something.

Probably, I ain't doing a wise thing posting this here. I don't know what's going to happen or if anything is going to at all. But after all, I have this space for the longest time I ever had.

I need Friends therapy, and by that, I mean the tv show.